I can’t take credit for anything that has happened during this transformation. I’m not even near where Jesus wants me to be just yet but everyday I am reminded that I am on the right track. I’m more motivated, my decisions are more thought based and purposeful & my life just feels like it has taken on a whole new meaning. I’ve felt refreshed every single day since the day I fully committed to Christ. I haven’t been perfect since that day but I know that I will soon get there. I’m still going through a cleansing period which has been less stressful than in times past. I struggled immensely with lust; it was so bad that even in church I would look at the opposite sex and wonder how far I could go with them. I had no shame in it and I didn’t realize how deep in sin I was. But now all of that has changed. Having a clean mind and pure heart is so refreshing in so many ways I can’t even begin to explain.
It’s Wednesday afternoon and I’m on the way to work listening to two tracks: Falling in Love with Jesus & Moving Forward. The decision to commit to Christ was a tough one, but the decision to completely make myself open to Him was even tougher. It’s one that I’m still learning to do but in the process I find myself falling in love with Him and His teachings. The way that Christ loves us can never be understood by us; it’s why when we think about his goodness it can often be overwhelming. I almost cried in worship on the way to work. I realize I’ve been in tears of joy a lot more lately. I’ve been attributing those tears to the victories that Jesus has had on behalf of my life.
So what’s new? I’ve connected with people who desire and yearn for God as much as I do. I committed to the church I had been attending sporadically since November of 2016. I was awarded a certificate there this past Sunday and I still haven’t wrapped my mind around that experience. It felt as though I was graduating in the presence of strangers. I didn’t go through multiple courses with these people like one does when they graduate with their college peers. When I got up to the stage to accept my membership certificate, I looked briefly into the crowd and only saw one familiar face; it was my friend Mack who initially brought me there to that church. I can’t thank God enough for using him to bring me here.
How did I get to this point? How did I finally reach a place of peace? How did I reach a place where I could trust Jesus as the anchor in my life? Those questions can be answered later but for right now, I know that I’m in a really great space with Him.